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I don't like my insurance agent!
Last saturday, after signing the agreeement : He goes "So give me a few names and numbers of your friends, like I said I would need you to give......." Me: " Errr..." "Don't you have any names? don't underestimate your ability to influence.." "But I really have ... Read more ...
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Egoistic Leos
I have an ego problem. I do not mix with people who are better than me in certain categories. This is very bad of me. Hahaha Read more ...
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Wei shen me ne me zhi zuo?
Let go. Think everything will be alright if I had let go of loving my brother. I will have no problems. Same goes for YJ. Why am I so stubborn in love? Read more ...
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What I really want
I guess anyone reading my blog, knows the obvious, but have not said it: I really wish he remembers everything, all the way from year 2000. How we started, every bit of the way we took. I wish he remembers and treasures it, returns as a whole of who he was. My wish is fat hope. ... Read more ...
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Don't let it go to waste!
It was so difficult getting through...... let it be for a good reason! Let it pay back big! Let it be for the better! Don't let it go to waste! No turning back! Move forward! Make myself prepared for something bigger and better! Let myself be ready for something good! And all that I am going thr... Read more ...
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I only know emotional misery
I think throughout my life, one thing is constant. Unhappiness, misery and imprisonment. I can't be happy for long. Now I am still unable to let go. I am still hanging on to "why", unable to accept my outcome. I am still sad, very sad, and desperate for help. My chest f... Read more ...
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Dear Gohonzon
Help me stay sane. Why do I still feel crazy when just ONE of his friends gather with me? Why do I feel uneasiness when friends say they are all getting married and pregnant? I saw another recent picture of him and actually am thinking he looks good. Since I no longer c... Read more ...
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Re-read ”My Heart Flutters- 24th June”
My brother once mentioned, that those desperate for a partner, shows it somehow. People can tell. They exude somekind of "aura". The "I am really needing a life partner" aura. I am exuding this desperado aura. FREAK! I need to get rid of the desperate thoughts and "aura". Read more ...
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Do I have a choice?
Mum goes on shopping with me. Sat down for a break at TCC Peranakan Place. We started chatting, then for some reason, came to the age-old topic of how inappropriatly I dress, or how I am not like a girl and do not take care of my appearance. Then it drifted to how I do not get a boyfri... Read more ...
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Imprisoned
I am imprisoned. By myself. By my inability to be courageous enough to handle my own life firmly. I am imprisoned. By my family. Parents who interfere at everything. Parents who wouldn't let go. I am imprisoned. By my skin. Skin that is a life-long com... Read more ...